Wesa Day

Today i went to the temple for a pray as a respect.....
when we went out bare foot...
i can feel that the tar road was hot and i can feel that
my feet were sure to be red...
but went uo to the car i have a look at my foot
but what i saw was my foot was as black as coal....
that is very terrible that i have not dreamed before.....

Finally the bad dream is over and there comes another

My god my ppt had just past.....
i had a terrible time struggling with time....
and then the hard time had pass and there come
another is the passing out the record book....
that is even worst than anything
when teacher talks to my parents without us knowing....
that is horrible....
then we come home
mother with a cane on her hand chasing after me....
i cannot even want to think about it.....
BECAUSE IT IS A NIGHT MARE FOR ME!!!

Saturday......

Tuition.....there are a lot of tuition i my live......since primary...
i had never been told to go for tuition....instead i had been asked to go to tuition.....
tomorrow i will be going for a ceramah at USM......
i still cannot have the feeling for the ceramah.....
i was thinking was i really wanted to go or just for
the sake of going by wasting my parents money.....
everyone look high on me just because i am a teacher`s daughter?
if i had a choice to choose i will never choose to be a teacher`s daughter....
my mom is scared that i will be laughed by others by telling me that i must
to what and what i am not suppose to do.....
why cannot they let me choose myself....
or because i am still young and not mutual enough?

Frastrating....

School,parents and friends gave me all kinds of
pressure for everything.....
include co-curriculum and academics ....
They will never think about how they feel they have bee given such a stress..
Exam is coming and there will be extra stress for me....haiz....

Haiz.....

Exam....Exam is coming but i cannot deny that i had not study for some of the subject...
But some i had already stared....but i feel that i have spend more time in studying
instead of playing....
but i hope that i would have good result in it....
but if i am nit good in i also cannot blame anyone for it because it is this myself that
do not want to study.....
so i have to kind of hard from now on ......

Happy Day

I don not know how to say....
i am happy in the way that i have a new net book for everyone
i think it may be a good thing for all of one in our family.....
and today i went to one of my friend house to finish up my folio i have kind
happy time there maybe....

Sunday

Time goes very fast that it is supporse to be....

Scard,fear, all these word have been coming out from my head

all this while....

i was scard i was fear that i ......

somrtimes i feel that i have too mych stress then when i wanted to take some rest

my mother hear come the nagging .....

then i have to start again the whole routine.....

somtimes it is kind of tiring but i have bare it because i know it is all for my own good....