Sick...

Why are they all did not have some caring towards their children?
Yesterday i was sick and hardly can get out from bed
then mother asked me whether i can or not to go for tuition....
When we are on the way to tuition i felt totally horrible
and my sister kept beating me
and so i scolded her
but my mother said that i did not co-operate
with her because i made her
CRIED!
i was sick that was why i schooled her
but my mother said that i did not co-operate with her
why not just be more certitudes with me
because i am sick?

Hate this kind of feelings....

Why it is me?
or just because among the me and my sister i am the biggest so have to
endure it?
everything that i have and you have your own why do you have
snatch it from me?
I hate it!
and the things you have why i just cannot share just for as minute?
just because you are small?
or just because
i am bigger than
i have give it to you?
Ya,if i do not give it to you ,you will
surely cry and telling everyone that i bully you but i did not....
everyone i meet they will surely say that you will surely
bully your sister...
but the affect is she is the one who always bully me!
i would like to say if you do not anything about my family please keep your
mouth
close....
although i know you just say it for fun but
don't you know your innocent word
has just hurt me!
i know that as the biggest i should not
be angry over such small issues but i
really cannot stand it any more....

over.....

Gosh....my exam is finally over.....
i felt that among all the exams i felt that this was the most
stressed up exam....
i do not know why?
i can even not sleep until11.30
but i remembered that the last time i went
bed early
but i really felt that among all the test i
did the best...but it is just ujian
it is not the real exam...

Before......

Before going out....

Dinner....

My god i never been to such a boring dinner, there were no songs and no dancers....

the whole ball room was so quite and there
were not even a single sound except songs of the customer talking....
And i was sitting a table with lots of
OLD PEOPLE MY GOD!
i never had such bad experience that the old people just cannot stop talking gossip..
who and who they will also talk about the bride and groom how they look,
were they pretty or what ever!
that just cannot stop them talking and talking nothing!
they compare everything from top till bottom...
i just cannot stand them talking...
and this will my first and the last time
i will ever sit with THEM!

Merentas Desa

I am lazy bum that dont like going for outdoors activities......
but i do enjoy playing games with friends,family or whoever it is.....
that day i was planning to come to school but i was to lazy to dragged myself
out from the bed and at the end i decided not to go to school!
but after when i woke up i really feel like going to school and have fin with friends...
talking and running together is a fun thing to do....
but because of the word LAZY i did not manage to get out from bed and went to school
what a lazy bum am i

The Decision

I think should agree that every decision that i had made i could not blame anyone for it
because that i myself made the discussion....
So have to bare it for because it is the discussion that i had chosen
the road that i had chosen
if i were to have a chance to come again i will never had chosen this road for
m
myself.....
I do not know or maybe i should say i could hardly recall anything
about why i had chosen this but
i should say although i am regret what i had chosen i still have
to bare with it.....